It is so difficult to believe that another year has come and gone. In February I will celebrate 3 years living in San Francisco. I can say that I feel like I have reached a place in my life where the achiness of being out here alone has somewhat faded. Maybe because I have accepted that I am where I am-- I may not know the reason why-- but I can be okay with it-- because whatever is thrown at me, I can deal with. I am a survivor. If there is anything I have learned this year, it is learning to cope with gain and loss, and how to survive. I really feel like I could go anywhere now, and be okay-- because I have made it here.
On the same note, I believe I have come to a place of knowing that my life will be what it will be. The days of day dreaming about what I will become, who I will marry, my children, my home-- they are finally being quietly calmed and put away. I am not saying that I will never have those things, but I am coming to an understanding that-- I may not have those things-- and it's okay.
My time of crazy travel and running a large territory is coming to an end. For the past 15 months I have been responsible for two territories. I hope that I have done a good job, and that those in power will recognize what I have done--- because for the most part, I have basically given up my life to keep it all going. In February a new person will take over the Sacramento portion of Northern CA. It is sort of a bitter sweet ending-- on one hand I will be thankful to not have to spread myself so thin... on the other hand, I have worked really hard to turn the business in Sacramento around and to stop the decline. For the most part I have been pretty successful. I had major obstacles--- furlough days, the highest unemployment in the country, additional distribution opening around me. I will now turn this business over to someone else-- and of course I want it to be successful, but a piece of me wants to hang on to it until it comes full circle, because I did the work.
This year I have been challenged. I have been pushed. I have been given trials that I never thought possible. But when I look back at it all, and see how I have grown, and what/who I have gained along the way, I really see that I have continued forward gracefully. There have been many occasions where I could have fallen apart. But I didn't. And I am all the better for it.
Good Bye 2010. You've been one crazy year!
3 comments:
Marcie,
You are a Star and will always be one in my eyes.
Your hard work will pay off, if not now it will in the future.
I pray that you will be blessed with the Joy's you long for, and continue to deal with the sorrows that may come along.
You are my Sunshine!
I hope your company is treating you right for all the hard work you've done! Here's to a more peaceful 2011!
You are a beautiful stron women and it sounds like you are HAPPY!!! That is great Marcie I am so glad to have you in my life even if it is through facebook and blogs :)
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